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  I could stand walking through my empty apartment.

  Sooner or later, I’d have to come to terms with the things that had happened there—some of them bad, some of them very, very good.

  All the very, very good stuff involved Tucker, unfortunately. And it wasn’t just the sex, either. We’d shared a lot of grilled cheese sandwiches in that apartment, swapped a few confidences, laughed and argued, too.

  I climbed the stairs, and my hand shook only a little as I jammed the key into the lock and turned it. The door creaked on its hinges as I pushed it open, and I forced myself to step over the threshold.

  Dark memories rushed me, left me breathless.

  I switched on the light in the short hallway, even though it was three o’clock in the afternoon and the sun was blazing through every window.

  My heart began to hammer as I moved into the living room. The atmosphere felt thick, smothering.

  I half expected my dead ex-husband to appear, but he didn’t.

  Even he would have been some consolation that day.

  I stayed close to the walls as I did reconnaissance, as cautious as if I were a member of some crack SWAT team staking out dangerous territory.

  I sidestepped around the edges of the living room, the kitchen and finally the place I was most afraid to go—the bedroom. There was a peculiar humming thud in my ears, and my stomach kept bouncing up into the back of my throat.

  I got down on my hands and knees, snagging my panty hose in the process, and peered under the bed. No monsters lurking there.

  A tap on my shoulder nearly launched me through the ceiling.

  I smacked my head on the bed frame and whirled on my knees, stoked on adrenaline, prepared to fight for my life.

  It was only Gillian.

  Her blue eyes glistened with tears. I wondered if she’d gone to the cemetery, seen her coffin lowered into the ground.

  But no, there hadn’t been time for that. And I knew there was no graveside service planned. Her mother and a few friends would be there, no one else.

  I straightened and pulled her into my arms. I didn’t even try not to cry.

  She clung to me, shivering. She felt so small, so fragile. Ethereal, but solid, too.

  “Talk to me, sweetheart,” I whispered when I’d recovered enough to speak. “Tell me who—who did this to you.”

  She shook her head. Was she refusing to tell me, or was it that she didn’t know who her murderer was? Yes, she’d denied her stepfather’s guilt with a shake of her head, but that didn’t mean she’d recognized her killer. He or she might have been a stranger. Or perhaps she hadn’t actually seen the person at all; I wasn’t even sure how or where she’d been killed. The police weren’t releasing that information and there was no visible indication of trauma in her appearance, either.

  Still, I had a strong intuitive sense that she was keeping a secret.

  I got up off my knees, sat on the edge of the bed I was still too afraid to sleep in. Gillian perched beside me, looking up into my face with enormous, imploring eyes.

  “Honey,” I said carefully, “did you see the person who hurt you?”

  Again, she shook her head, another clear no. There had been a slight hesitation, though.

  I let out a breath. “But you’re sure it wasn’t your stepfather?”

  She nodded vigorously.

  I was about to ask how she could be so certain when the phone on my bedside table rang, a shrill jangling that made my nerves jump.

  Gillian instantly evaporated.

  I picked up the receiver more out of reflex than any desire to talk to anyone. “Hello?”

  “It’s Tucker.”

  I closed my eyes. Opened them again right away, in case some psycho was about to spring out of the woodwork and pounce. “What?” I asked, none too graciously.

  He let out a sigh. “Look, I don’t blame you for being upset,” he said after an interval of brief, throbbing silence. “But we still need to talk.”

  “How did you know I was here?”

  “I guessed.”

  “Liar.”

  “All right, I drove by after I dropped Allison off at home, and I saw your car in the parking lot at Bert’s.”

  “Where are you?”

  “Standing at the bottom of the stairway, trying to work up the nerve to come up and knock on your door.”

  “Don’t,” I said.

  “Moje, we need to talk—about us, about lots of stuff. But today it’s all about Gillian. I’m not planning to jump your bones, I promise.”

  “Okay,” I heard myself say, taking him at his word. In fact, Tucker was about as easy to resist as a tsunami. “Come up, then. The door’s open.”

  Tucker rang off, and I heard him double-timing it up the outside stairs.

  I replaced the cordless phone on its base, stood, straightened the black dress I’d borrowed from Greer—it was the same one I’d worn to Lillian’s funeral, not that long ago—and smoothed my wild red hair, which was trying to escape from the clip holding it captive at the back of my head.

  “You should have locked the door,” Tucker said, standing just inside my door in the tiny entry hall. He’d shed his suit coat, but he was still wearing the dark slacks, a crisp white shirt and a tie, the knot loosened. He looked like some next-dimension version of himself, just slightly off.

  “As far as I know,” I replied circumspectly, keeping my distance, “nobody is trying to kill me.”

  “Hey,” he said with a bleak attempt at a grin, “given your history, that could change at any moment.”

  “Let’s have coffee,” I said, turning toward the kitchen. I needed a table between us if we were going to talk about Gillian, and something to do with my hands. “With luck, it hasn’t been poisoned since I was here last.”

  Tucker followed me through the living room.

  I felt a pang, missing Russell, a very alive basset hound, and my equally dead cat, Chester. Russell was in Witness Protection with his people, and Chester, after haunting me for a while, had gone on to the great beyond. Now he only haunted my memory.

  My throat tightened as I grabbed the carafe off the coffeemaker, rinsed it at the sink and began the brewing process. I heard Tucker drag back a chair at the table behind me and sink into it.

  “You’ve seen her again,” he said. “Gillian, I mean.”

  I nodded without looking back at him. I couldn’t, just then, because my eyes were burning with tears. “She was at the funeral.”

  Tucker didn’t throw a net over me, for my own safety and that of others, or anything like that. He was the most rational man I’d ever known, and his brain was heavily weighted to the left, but as a child, he’d had an experience with a ghost himself. He’d believed me when I told him about seeing Nick, and Gillian, too.

  I don’t know what I would have done if he hadn’t.

  “She doesn’t talk, Tuck,” I said, groping to assemble the coffee. Open the can, spoon in ground java beans.

  “She wouldn’t,” Tucker answered. “She was a deaf-mute.”

  I turned, staring at him, forgetting all about my wet eyes. He got up, took the carafe from my hands, poured the water into the top of the coffeemaker and pushed the button.

  “I guess that shoots the theory that people leave their disabilities behind when they die,” he said when I couldn’t get a word out of my mouth.

  “There’s apparently some kind of transition phase for some people,” I replied when I was sure my voice box hadn’t seized and rusted. “In between death and whatever comes next, that is.” I paused, moved away from him to get two mugs down off a cupboard shelf and rinse them out with hot water. “Why didn’t you tell me Gillian couldn’t hear or speak?”

  Tucker leaned against the counter, his arms folded, the ancient coffeemaker chortling and surging behind him, like a rocket trying to take off but not quite having the momentum. Tilting his head slightly to one side, he answered, “It didn’t come up, Moje. We haven’t talked that much lately.” />
  “She didn’t see who killed her,” I told him. “God, I hope it was quick—that she didn’t suffer, or have time to be scared.” I finally faced him. “Tucker, was she—was she—she wasn’t—”

  “She wasn’t molested,” Tucker said.

  Relief swept through me with such force that my knees threatened to give out, and Tucker crossed the room in a couple of strides, took me by the shoulders and lowered me gently into a chair.

  “How did she die?” I asked very softly. I didn’t want to know, but at the same time I had to, or I was going to go crazy speculating.

  Tucker crouched in front of my chair, holding both my hands in his. The pads of his thumbs felt only too good, chafing the centers of my palms. “You can’t tell anybody, Moje,” he said. “That’s really important.”

  I knew that. I’d read The Damn Fool’s Guide to Criminal Investigation. The police always keep certain pertinent details of any crime under wraps, for a lot of reasons, not the least of which is the danger of compromising the case if word gets out before the trial.

  “Tell me,” I said.

  “Gillian was strangled,” he told me. “With a piece of thin wire.”

  I swayed in my chair. “Oh, my God—”

  “According to the ME, it happened quickly,” Tucker said, but he looked as though he was thinking the same thing I was.

  Not quickly enough.

  “You’re sure she ruled out the stepfather?” he asked when I didn’t say anything.

  I nodded. “I asked her twice.”

  “Moje,” Tucker told me after rising from his haunches and taking a chair near mine, “he has an arrest record. Vince Erland, I mean. Solicitation of a minor—sexual context.”

  My stomach roiled. I slapped a hand over my mouth.

  Tucker waited.

  The coffee perked.

  “He’s a pedophile?” I asked, my voice coming out as a croak.

  “We’re not sure. The alleged victim was seventeen, and there was some evidence that she encouraged his advances. The charges were dismissed.”

  “But still…”

  Tucker nodded grimly. “Still,” he agreed.

  “Gillian might have been mistaken,” I murmured, “or maybe she simply didn’t want to believe her stepfather, someone she trusted, would hurt her.”

  “Nine times out of ten,” Tucker said, “the perp is somebody the victim trusts. Lousy, but true.”

  “But it could have been a random attack, right?”

  “It could have been, but it probably wasn’t.”

  “How can you be so sure?”

  Tucker closed his eyes, opened them again. “Vince Erland picked Gillian up after the dance rehearsal. According to him, they stopped off at a supermarket on the way home and Gillian vanished. The report’s on file—but he didn’t call it in until he got back to the trailer. Most people would have been on the horn to 911 the second they realized their child was missing. Why did he wait?”

  “I don’t know,” I said, pondering. “I didn’t see this on the news, Tuck. That Mr. Erland was the last person to see Gillian—”

  “It’ll be out there soon enough,” Tucker said. “His story is that he’d promised her a dog, and then had to go back on his word because he didn’t have the money. He broke the news at the supermarket. She got mad and took off, and he thought she went home—it’s a hike, but she probably could have done it.”

  “But the police don’t believe it. That’s why they’re holding Erland.”

  Tucker looked conflicted. He probably knew a lot more about the case than he would admit, and he was deciding how much to tell me. “Partly,” he said. “They’re concerned for his safety, too. When it comes out that he was with Gillian just before she died, especially with his background, a lot of people aren’t going to presume he’s innocent until he’s proven guilty. I don’t need to tell you that emotions run high in situations like this. Some of the vigilante types might not be able to resist the temptation to take the law into their own hands.”

  I was still thinking about Gillian. She was a deaf-mute; she couldn’t have cried out for help when she realized she was in trouble. Still, small as she was, she was determined, too. I believed she would have put up a struggle, however futile.

  My heart ached, imagining that.

  “Where was Mrs. Erland during all this?”

  “Working,” Tucker said with a shake of his head.

  “No one saw anything? There must have been other shoppers in the store—clerks, passersby on the road…”

  Tucker didn’t answer.

  “You’re a DEA agent,” I prodded. “How come you know so much about this investigation? Surely it isn’t under federal jurisdiction.”

  “I resigned,” he answered. “I’m with the sheriff’s department now—homicide division.”

  “And right off the bat you were assigned to this particular case? Isn’t that a conflict of interest, considering that Gillian and Daisy were friends?”

  “Cave Creek is a small town,” he reasoned quietly. “Helen Erland grew up here. Anybody who caught the case would have at least a passing acquaintance with the family.”

  I got up, because the coffee had finally stopped brewing, and poured a cup for Tucker and one for myself.

  “I could help, Tucker,” I said. “With the investigation.”

  Tucker’s jawline immediately tightened. “No way,” he replied tersely. “This is serious police work, Mojo. There’s no place in a murder investigation for an amateur with a mail-order P.I. license and a stack of Damn Fool’s Guides on procedure.”

  “Gillian came to me,” I pointed out, generously letting the gibe about my credentials pass. “There must be a reason.”

  Tucker, about to take a sip of his coffee, set the cup down with a thunk. A muscle bunched in his cheek. “I mean it, Mojo,” he warned. “Stay out of this case.”

  “Too late,” I answered. “I’m already in.”

  “How do you figure that?”

  “You’re the one with the badge,” I admitted, “but I’m the one being haunted by a seven-year-old in a ballerina costume. I think Gillian’s trying to help me figure out who killed her, and I wouldn’t turn my back on her even if I could.”

  “Can’t you just tell her to go into the Light, or something? Like that woman on TV?”

  I sighed. “I wish it were that easy. Do you think I like having a little girl’s ghost pop up every time I turn around? Gillian’s not going anywhere, including into the Light, until she’s ready.”

  Tucker paled under his biker’s tan. Rubbed his palms together and stared as though he could see through my kitchen floor and into the closed bar beneath it.

  “It’s okay,” I said.

  I wanted to reach out, touch his cheek or his shoulder, but I didn’t dare, because I knew where it would lead. We both needed comfort, and I was pretty sure any physical contact between us would be supercharged by grief and frustration. As much as I would have liked to lose myself in Tucker’s lovemaking for a little while, if I did, I wouldn’t be able to stand it when he went back to Allison.

  “What’s okay?” he rasped, understandably convinced that nothing ever could be “okay,” in a world where children are murdered.

  “Being relieved that this didn’t happen to Daisy or Danny. It’s a normal human reaction—and it doesn’t mean you don’t care about Gillian.”

  He glared at me. “Where did that come from? The Damn Fool’s Guide to Bullshit Psychology?”

  I sighed. “Go home, Tucker.”

  He did. He got up out of his chair and walked out, without another word or even a backward glance.

  I should have been relieved, but I wasn’t.

  CHAPTER TWO

  EVEN BEFORE Tucker’s arrival I hadn’t wanted to be alone in the apartment. After he was gone, the place seemed to yawn like some dark, uncharted cavern.

  I emptied our cups, poured out the fresh coffee and shut off the machine. Then I snatched up my key ring, grabbed
a couple of Damn Fool’s Guides off the bookshelves in my living room and boogied for the car.

  When I arrived at Greer’s fifteen minutes later, I parked in her brick driveway and, once I’d punched in the combination on the keypad by the back gate, skirted the main house. I simply wasn’t up to seeing my sister just then.

  The pool looked inviting as I passed, but the sun was still blazing, even though it was definitely headed west. Later, I promised myself.

  The guesthouse, euphemistically called a “casita,” was a three-bedroom, one-story territorial with all the conveniences—including a plasma TV that could be lowered out of the ceiling, a sunken bathtub with jets and a wet bar.

  It was also blessedly cool.

  I tossed my keys, purse and the stack of Damn Fool’s Guides onto the granite-topped counter separating the kitchen and combination living and dining room, and kicked off my high heels. Like the dress, they were Greer’s, and they pinched my toes.

  “Gillian?” I called.

  Nothing.

  I think I can be forgiven for being a little relieved that she wasn’t around. And of course I knew she’d be back.

  I proceeded to the master bath, stripped off the dress, chucked the ruined panty hose, started a lukewarm shower going and stepped naked under the spray. After I’d scrubbed and shampooed, I felt a little better. Wrapped in a towel, I padded back into the bedroom, lay down in the middle of the bed and allowed myself to air-dry.

  I must have fallen asleep right away.

  When I stirred to semiconsciousness, the room was nearly dark and my right big toe was clamped between two strong, cold fingers.

  I choked out a strangled little shriek, wrenched free and shinnied to a sitting position with my back against the intricately carved headboard of the bed. Peering at the shadowy, adult-sized form—this was definitely not Gillian—I scrambled to cover myself with the towel.

  “Alex?” I gasped, groping for the lamp on the bedside table. Nick?

  I’d been meaning to shop for a gun—Jolie had promised to teach me how to shoot it—but there hadn’t been time. Now I wished I’d bought one.

  I flipped the switch, and light spilled into the room.