A Wanted Man Page 23

  Outside that room, Hon Sing was operating on Gideon, and the boy's life hung in the balance. Inside, the air seemed to quiver.

  "Former," Lark confirmed. "I divorced Autry a few days after I left Denver. I've been hiding ever since."

  Rowdy nodded. "I thought it must be something like that," he said. "It isn't an easy thing, getting a divorce, especially when it's the woman who goes after it. How did you manage it so quickly?"

  Lark let out a long breath. Wished she could go and sit beside Rowdy on his bed, feel his arm slip around her, steely strong. But she was too afraid he'd shun her. "If you have enough money," she said evenly, "you can do almost anything."

  "Were there any children, Lark?" Rowdy put the question gently enough, but she could see by the flicker in his eyes that the answer was important to him.

  "Of course not," she said, feeling mildly indignant. Given all that had happened during the night, Gideon's shooting, seeing him moved from the Cattleman's Hall here, in the back of someone's wagon, she was mostly numb. "I wouldn't have left my own child behind. And besides, Autry couldn't—"

  "Couldn't what?" Rowdy prompted, when she fell silent. "Couldn't make love to you?"

  She trembled, bit down so hard on the inside of her lower lip that she tasted blood. "He tried. He put his hands on me—and sometimes, he even—" She closed her eyes.

  "It's all right, Lark," Rowdy said, though he still gave no indication that he wanted her beside him, that he'd ever touch her again. "You were married to the man. Naturally, you shared his bed."

  Lark tried to blink away her tears, but more came, and then more, until her face was wet. She sat rigidly in her chair, yearning to be held, fearing she'd perish, at least on the inside, if Rowdy spurned her. "I didn't feel—I didn't feel any of the things I felt with you." She gave a slight shake of her head, and a bitter little sob of a laugh. "I didn't even know it was possible to feel those things."

  The corner of Rowdy's mouth tilted up, but the grin came nowhere near his eyes. He looked so worn down that, even in her own extremity, Lark suddenly wanted to offer him consolation more than she wanted to receive it from him. She ached to lie down with Rowdy Rhodes and wrap her arms around him, and hold him tightly until everything was all right.

  "Whitman is old enough to be your grandfather," he said. "What possessed you to marry him in the first place? And don't say you loved him, because I know you didn't. Was it the money, Lark?"

  Lark straightened her spine. She'd thought the hardest part of all this would be telling Rowdy that she'd lived two horrid years as Autry Whitman's wife, a plaything to be fondled and spoiled and petted—and used. But, no, she had yet to say the most difficult truth.

  She shook her head. "It wasn't the money," she said. "I was singing in a saloon in San Francisco when I met Autry."

  "Go on," Rowdy said. His voice hadn't changed, nor had his manner, but his eyes were hard as he waited for the rest.

  "I was the 'swing' girl," Lark reflected, looking back in her mind, seeing herself on that ridiculous crimson velvet contraption, suspended from the high ceiling of Cyrus Teede's show house by golden ropes, soaring out over the upturned faces of leering men in one of several scant costumes, singing and smiling just as though she enjoyed being the center of all that lascivious attention.

  Instead, she'd lived in fear.

  Whenever the box office receipts were down, Teede, a hoodlum in gentleman's garb, threatened to send men to her room. They'd be willing to pay handsomely for a visit, Teede had said, and she wouldn't even have to sing.

  Lark had been well paid for performing in the show house, but Cyrus "invested" most of her money. She'd tried to leave twice. On both occasions Cyrus had found her and dragged her back. Slapped her into submission.

  She realized, as she was remembering all this, that she was telling it to Rowdy, too. Saying it right out loud.

  "Then, one spring evening, Autry came to see the show. Everyone kowtowed to him, the famous railroad owner. Teede had already told me he was planning to sell my favors, and I knew that was going to be the night, because I'd seen him talking with some of the regulars, all of them looking at me. I saw money change hands. I was so afraid, I could barely sing—I knew Teede meant what he'd said, and all the doors were being watched by his henchmen. I wasn't going to get away, and I'd be beaten senseless if I tried—after Teede's customers had their way with me."

  Rowdy's jawline tightened, but he didn't speak. He simply waited.

  Lark swallowed. "Autry immediately let it be known that he wanted me, the way he might have wanted a bauble in a storefront window. He believed I was a...a prostitute, but he was willing to marry me, just the same." She blew out a breath. "Oh, he was so noble about it. He must have paid Teede an astronomical sum of money to let me go—"

  Rowdy shifted, watching her, resting his elbows on his thighs now, his fingers tented beneath his chin. "What happened then, Lark?" he asked, his voice as still as deep waters sheltered from the wind on all sides.

  Lark dashed at her cheeks with the back of one hand, raised her chin a notch. "Autry and I were married that same night, by a justice of the peace, in Teede's back office. I'd escaped being thrown to those men like a carcass to wolves—but I hadn't escaped. I still spent the night in a rich stranger's bed."

  Rowdy closed his eyes against the images, but Lark knew by the bunching of a muscle in his cheek that he hadn't evaded them.

  Having begun the tale, Lark couldn't seem to stop. Words tumbled out of her mouth, truths long withheld, even from herself. "I was a virgin when Autry took me the first time, but, like I said, he never believed that, even when he made me bleed. I guess he thought it was some kind of whore's trick. By morning, I was so raw and bruised, I could barely get out of bed—the only reason I did, the only reason I didn't just lie there, waiting to die, was the fear that Autry would pounce on me again."

  Rowdy muttered a curse, and Lark felt condemned by it.

  "Do you know what he did the day after we were married?" she went on, partly out of spite, because she was sure Rowdy was judging her, and partly because she still couldn't stop the flow of confession. "He bought me a new wardrobe and all sorts of jewelry— oh, I was a showpiece, to be sure. Back in Denver, he installed me in his mansion and presented me as his pristine young bride, who'd married him for love. I played the part until I couldn't stand it anymore."

  "And then?"

  She told Rowdy about the funeral she'd attended with Autry. Said how she'd pleaded a sick headache and asked to leave. Then she'd told the carriage driver she'd gotten word that her sister was sick—dear God, how many times had she longed for a real sister, someone like Maddie O'Ballivan, to turn to for help?—and taken the next train out of town.

  She'd gone to San Francisco first, even though it was Cyrus Teede's territory, because she had a few hundred dollars there, money she'd saved while singing for a living, mostly given to her by men hoping for more than a song, tucked into a safe deposit box in a bank. It had taken every penny to end her marriage to Autry, and she'd paid it gladly.

  She'd gone to a special shop, immediately after securing the divorce, certain that Autry had already hired Pinkertons to search for her, and had her blond hair dyed brown. Then, clutching her copy of the decree of divorcement, she'd boarded another train, the first one leaving San Francisco that day, not caring where it was headed, as long as it wasn't Denver.

  She'd gotten off in Phoenix, bought a newspaper for a penny and read the classified advertisements. Thus she'd learned there was a teaching position open in Stone Creek, and that Mrs. Porter had clean rooms to let for a reasonable price.

  She'd gone without meals on the long stagecoach ride north from Phoenix, a journey of several days, for her money—now amounting only to what she'd stolen from Autry's humidor in the study—was nearly gone. It had taken the last of it to secure room and board at Mrs. Porter's, and even then she hadn't had enough. Mrs. Porter had taken pity on her and let her pay the rest when she receive
d her first month's salary.

  Having related all this, Lark felt dry and empty inside. She had nothing more to tell, so she just sat there, her back straight, waiting for some reaction from Rowdy.

  When it came, it startled her so that she nearly bolted.

  He rose off the bed, with a creaking of mattress springs, crossed to her, and pulled her to her feet. And then he began unbuttoning the bodice of her ruined dress.

  When he'd removed the dress, Rowdy threw back the covers on the bed and laid her down on them. Took off her shoes. Drew the quilt up to her chin and bent to kiss her forehead.

  "Get some sleep," he told her. "We'll figure out what to do about Whitman and the rest of it later, when you're rested. Right now I'm so worried about Gideon, I can't think about anything else."

  Lark ached to be held, and at the very same time, she prayed Rowdy would leave her alone. Prayed he didn't think, as Autry had, that she was a whore, ripe for using. As much as she wanted Rowdy Rhodes, she couldn't have borne it if he used her.

  Fresh tears sprang to her eyes, and it was all she could do not to reach for Rowdy, not to pull him down onto the bed beside her.

  He left the room, closing the door quietly behind him.

  Lark lay stiff in the cool, wintry light streaming in through the window. She would never sleep again; she was sure of that.

  But in the next moment she nodded off.

  Hours later she awakened, stirred from the depths of slumber by some sound, and knew that Rowdy was back. It must have been early afternoon, she concluded, but she couldn't be sure she hadn't slept round the clock, either. If she had, it was Monday, and she was late for school.

  Lark watched, her heart pounding, as Rowdy sat down on the side of the bed to remove his boots.

  "I know you're awake," he said. "No sense pretending you're not."

  Lark sighed. "Gideon?"

  "He'll be a while mending, but he'll be all right. Sam and I brought the cot from the jailhouse, and Gideon's sleeping on that. Mai Lee came to sit with him, once Hon Sing finished the surgery."

  Tears of relief rushed to Lark's eyes, but she blinked them back.

  "What time is it? Is it still Sunday?"

  "It's about three-thirty in the afternoon, and, yes, it's still Sunday."

  "I'm not a whore, Rowdy," she heard herself say.

  "I know that," he replied, standing to haul off his shirt, unbutton his pants, strip till he was naked.

  Lark blinked, at once thrilled and alarmed by the sight of him. "You do?"

  He chuckled, lifted the covers and got into bed beside her. He felt hard and solid and blessedly warm, and she resisted an urge to draw closer to him, slip into his arms.

  Had the time come?

  Was he going to make love to her?

  Or was he there simply because he was exhausted and there wasn't another bed?

  As if in answer, Rowdy rolled from his back onto his side. Laid a hand boldly over Lark's left breast. She was wearing only a camisole and a pair of drawers—left from when he'd undressed her earlier.

  "This is the day, Lark," he said, caressing her, chafing at her nipple with the side of his thumb until it jutted against the thin fabric of her camisole and she groaned. "You can still say no. I swear I won't touch you again, if you do, but if you want me as much as I want you, then I'll have you."

  She couldn't speak. So she simply nodded.

  Rowdy sighed, a deep, masculine sound, and worked the tiny buttons on her camisole until her breasts were bared to him.

  Her breath was already fast and shallow. "She'll hear," she fretted. "Mai Lee will hear—"

  "She's asleep," Rowdy said, and bent to suckle at her nipple even as he hooked a thumb under the top of her drawers and began pulling them down. "There'll be plenty to hear, though, if she isn't."

  Lark moaned again.

  And then Rowdy's hand slipped between her legs, and he found the tear in her bloomers, chuckled as he worked his fingers through to play with her. "So you wanted to be ready for me," he said.

  Lark whimpered as he teased her most sensitive spot. Shook her head. "I must have put them back on by mistake—" she protested, but even that much was so hard to say, given what he was doing to her, that she couldn't go on.

  "Liar," he said. He went back to suckling at her breast, and she gasped softly and started when he thrust his fingers inside her. Her hips surged up off the mattress, seeking more.

  He brought her quickly to that first release, sharp and keen, but not assuaging her terrible need. Instead she wanted him more.

  He shifted onto his knees, removed her drawers, tossed them aside, along with the camisole. He spread her hair out around her head on the pillows and then, gently, he guided her hands to the rails in the headboard, closed her fingers around them.

  Confused, feeling deliciously vulnerable, Lark tightened her grip.

  "I'm not a whore," she said again.

  "I wouldn't do this if I thought you were," he answered, and kissed his way down her belly until he reached the place where his fingers played. He parted her, took her into his mouth.

  Perspiration slickened Lark's palms as she gripped the headboard railings. She moaned his name, pleading.

  He took his time with her, took his pleasure, now feasting upon her, now barely flicking at her with the tip of his tongue.

  Finally, when the need was beyond bearing, Lark exploded, her entire body convulsing in a spasm so sweetly violent that she couldn't hold in a long, lusty wail of release.

  Mai Lee must surely have heard, she thought, but then Rowdy was on top of her, lying between her spread legs, prodding at her, causing her to open for him, and she couldn't think of anything else but the way it felt.

  He entered her with one swift motion of his hips. Went deep.

  Lark's eyes rolled back in her head, and her grip on the headboard felt slippery. She dared not let go, though, because she needed anchoring, needed some way to keep her mind tethered to her body—her quivering, anxious, seeking body.

  Rowdy pressed his hands into the mattress on either side of Lark, and paused, his head thrown back. She felt him restraining himself, knew he was savoring the feel of her around him, even exulting, in some elemental male way, in possessing her.

  She began to move beneath him, very slightly and very slowly, and the power shifted. Rowdy groaned hoarsely, whispered her name.

  They found a rhythm then, moving in concert, with a savage grace.

  He brought her to the brink, brought himself to the brink.

  Then he stopped again. Without withdrawing from her, he lowered himself to kiss her, conquering her as thoroughly with his tongue as with his manhood. She was breathless when their mouths parted, and could only make a low, guttural sound when he began to take her in earnest.

  He moved more and more quickly, though each stroke was as smooth as a sword thrust into a scabbard. Lark drew up her knees and thrashed under Rowdy, pummeled him wildly with her body, let go of the headboard at the final moment—and soared.

  She felt Rowdy stiffen, long moments after her own climax, and spill himself into her, moaning her name, over and over again, as he gave himself up.

  He fell to her, and they lay entwined for a long, silent while, breathing raggedly, and as one.

  "Do you think Mai Lee heard?" Lark asked, worried.

  "No," Rowdy said. "But she might hear this." And then he turned her onto her stomach, and set her hands back on the rails above her head, and glided into her from behind, one hand cupping her right breast, the other under her, stroking the nubbin of flesh between her legs. She felt the walls of her femininity convulse around him.

  Lark climaxed, hard, within three thrusts, and buried her face in Rowdy's pillow to muffle her throaty cries. She was still reeling from that when Rowdy, who hadn't given in to pleasure yet, raised her onto her hands and knees. After pausing, kissing her shoulders, her spine, the back of her neck, he rammed into her, like a stallion taking a mare, catapulting her into a daze
of new and wholly unexpected ecstasy.

  This time, there was no muffling her cries.

  And no muffling his.

  Half the town must have known what they were doing, let alone Mai Lee, Lark thought, in some small, lucid part of her mind, as she quivered at the peak of a shattering surrender. And she didn't give a damn.

  Let them know.

  Let them know Rowdy Rhodes was having the schoolmarm in a squeaky bed in the house behind the jailhouse, having her thoroughly. And she was loving it.

  -17-

  Rowdy was gone long before Lark awakened in a strange bed much later, confused and a little disoriented. Then, remembering what had transpired there, she felt her cheeks burn, even as she set aside her own embarrassment, by force of will, to consider more pressing matters.

  Gideon. Was he alive? Had Hon Sing's surgery succeeded?

  She sat bolt upright, desperate to know.

  And Lydia. How was she faring? Lark had not seen the child since before she left Mrs. Porter's to follow Gideon to the Cattleman's Hall, and though she'd been on the mend, a relapse was certainly possible.

  Finally, there was Autry. He could be on his way to Stone Creek even at that moment, or, worse, he might already have arrived. Suppose he'd installed himself at the Territorial Hotel, bent on harrying Sam and the major to pursue the train robbers with every available resource?

  He might see her, at any time, or hear her name by chance. Most people addressed her as "Miss Morgan"—Autry wouldn't recognize that, because she'd made it up out of whole cloth—but someone might refer to her as "Lark," and that would be disastrous.

  Why hadn't she called herself Susan or Mary, names common enough to escape notice?

  But she knew the answer, of course. She'd given up so much of herself, running and lying and dying her hair. She'd kept the name her mother had given her because she hadn't wanted to abandon herself completely—because she was Lark.